29.8.06


you know, there's obviously a difference between a flame on a candle that dies fast and a flame that dies finally after flickering for some time. but ultimately, both are extinguished.

i realised that what that has to happen will happen. what that has to come will come, no matter what. it's destiny, fate that we all succumb to in the end. so i ought to accept it and be content with what i have. what's meant to be mine will be mine.

i pondered on this. awards are just a bonus on top of promoting to jc. i don't study for them. i didn't do cip activities to get them. what's the point in doing cip or whatever with the intended purpose of getting awards. but its like suddenly when awards are mentioned, everyone volunteered to do cip so readily.

i'm appalled by people in my class. how can someone be so bu4 yao4 lian3 and give that kind of cocky attitude because the teacher sang praises of a piece of work that he copied. and he actually thought he had the right to tell off another student who tried to let the teacher know about the plagiarism. so much so for integrity in hwa chong students.

got back lit test result. didn't expect myself to get 20 with a piece of crap. and i thought lohwl would erase my name off before photocopying my essay because i didn't see scoring this test as a compliment. maybe it's because i think i share similar feelings with the creature, and that's not a compliment for sure. so i can just express what it feels without much difficulty. but at the very least, i did everything by myself.

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